Saturday, September 26, 2009


Ever since I came back to Provo, I have not been able to sleep. I try to go to bed at a reasonable time, but i can never sleep until 2 or 3am, sometimes even as late as 5am. I just lie in bed awake. My mind just won't shut off. Thursday night, once again, i could not sleep. It was midnight and i didn't have class the next day so i wasn't too worried. I went online and began to watch Grey's Anatomy. I don't have a TV in the apartment, so i wasn't able to watch it when it was on. I have to watch online.
Anyway, as I was watching, I heard a knocking sound. It sounded as if it was the front door. I ignored it and went back to my show. A little while later, i heard the knocking again. This time it sounded a lot closer and I heard some voices. I thought it was the girl in the apartment next to me (she is kinda loud). Once again, I ignored it. Grey's Anatomy then ended (Great episode by the way), and I shut my computer off to try to sleep.
I heard the knocking again, and now that there was no other sounds in my room, I could hear where it was coming from...the window! I thought I was crazy. There is no way someone could be at my window, I am on the second floor. I tried to ignore it but once again I heard the tapping and there was no mistaking it. It was deffinately a tapping on my window. I also heard a mans voice. It was right there! I then began to freak out!!! It was 2 am. My window was open a crack. And there was a man knocking on it!!! I grabbed my phone and pillows and ran out of the room. I was shaking uncontrollably. I called my boyfriend cause i needed to tell someone and for someone to calm me down. He told me to call the police so i called the University Police. They told me they would send someone out to look around.
My roommates were both sleeping and I didn't want to wake them up, but I didn't want to be alone as I waited, so I called Patrick back. He stayed awake on the phone, but after an hour (3am, 5am NJ time), he was so exhausted I let him sleep. I too fell asleep on the couch. At 4am I woke up and still no contact from the police. I was exhausted and it had been 2 hours since the incident. So I bravely returnedd to my room.
The next morning when I woke up, there were still no signs of the police ever coming. I looked out my window. There is a hill that brings up the ground a lot closer to my window then a regular 2 story window...but i know what i heard..hmmmm creepy. I do know one thing, I am not sleeping with my window open again!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Red Fridays

This story was forwarded to me in an email, and i thought it was very touching...
If the red shirt thing is new to you, read below how it went for a man...

Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine

sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together.

After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to

sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home.

No, he responded.

Heading out I asked?

No. I'm escorting a soldier home.

Going to pick him up?

No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq , I'm taking him home to

his family.

The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the

gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the

soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family

and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days.

I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, Thank you. Thank you for

doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do.

Upon landing in Chicago the pilot stopped short of the gate and made the

following announcement over the intercom.

"Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to note that we have had the honor of

having Sergeant Steeley of the United States Marine Corps join us on this

flight He is escorting a fallen comrade back home to his family. I ask that

you please remain in your seats when we open the forward door to allow

Sergeant Steeley to deplane and receive his fellow soldier. We will then

turn off the seat belt sign."

Without a sound, all went as requested. I noticed the sergeant saluting the

casket as it was brought off the plane, and his action made me realize that

I am proud to be an American.

So here's a public Thank You to our military Men and Women for what you do

so we can live the way we do.

Red Fridays.

Very soon, you will see a great many people wearing Red every Friday. The

reason? Americans who support our troops used to be called the "silent

majority." We are no longer silent, and are voicing our love for God,

country and home in record breaking numbers. We are not organized,

boisterous or overbearing.

Many Americans, like you, me and all our friends, simply want to recognize

that the vast majority of America supports our troops. Our idea of showing

solidarity and support for our troops with dignity and respect starts this

Friday -- and continues each and every Friday until the troops all come

home, sending a deafening message that ... every red-blooded American who

supports our men and women a far, will wear something red.

By word of mouth, press, TV -- let's make the United States on every Friday

a sea of red much like a homecoming football game in the bleachers. If every

one of us who loves this country will share this with acquaintances,

coworkers, friends, and family, it will not be long before the USA is

covered in RED and it will let our troops know the once "silent" majority is

on their side more than ever, certainly more than the media lets on.

The first thing a soldier says when asked "What can we do to make things

better for you?" is. "We need your support and your prayers." Let's get the

word out and lead with class and dignity, by example, and wear something red

every Friday.

I know that I tend to take my safety for granted. i am free ad safe because of thousands of men and women who put their own safety on the line to help protect me, and they don't even know me. I will do my best to show my support. my red will be hidden when BYU goes against the Utes though :)

Saturday, August 15, 2009


Vericose veins run in my family. My mother, uncle and grandfather all had them. And I do too. Yay for me (sarcasm!). Normally they show up during or after a pregnancy and with old age. It isn't exactly normal to have them at the age of 19, but when have i ever been normal? (don't answer that) I have had them as long as i can remember, but they didn't really start bothering me until 3 years ago. I went and got them looked at, but our family doctor didn't feel the need to do anything about it. He said they were fine. But in the past year, they have really started to hurt. So this summer mom and i decided to get them looked at again. Our insurance changed and we were able to go to the doctor that my mother went to with hers. His son was my doctor. We did an ultra sound to check them out. They were 4 times the size that the vein should be in both legs. Uncommon for someone my age. So we decided to go through the vein closure procedure. I started getting a lil light headed as he was telling me what he wass going to do during the procedure, so i am not sure of the specifics. All i know is that they were going to burn the vein closed but my leg would be numb from needles.
My right leg was first. It was originally scheduled for aug 10 and my left leg the 17th. But that would only leave me 3 days before the roadtrip out west. After the office got approval from the insurance, the surgery was moved up to fri. Aug 7. The thursday before, i had to take a pregnancy tet at lab corp then get an ulrta sound on my right leg to map it out for the surgery. The technition also drew a big black line on my leg as the map.
An hour before the procedure i had to take a valium and put a numbing cream on my leg. As i was about to put the cream on my hands, i realized my fingers wold get numb, so i quick put gloves on. After i was all ceamed up, i needed to wrap my leg up in plastic wrap, yeah i know, strange!

I wasn't nervous until i went into the surgery room (prolly the valium). I think it was the smell that got to me. I was told to put on a hospital gown and panties. That was weird. I can't remember ever wearing a gown before. And the little underwear was fitted really weird and was paper. I was glad when i was able to change back! I took another valium and layed down on the bed. The good thing about the bed was that it was super cushy and comfy. After i was prepped, they left and turned the lights off to let me relax before the doctor came in. I almost fell asleep. When the doc finally came he started telling me what he was doing, but i stopped him. I am a believer in ignorance is bliss. As long as i don't know anything to expect, i am fine. There were a ton of needle pricks that hurt, but it wasn't too bad. It was quick too, just 25 min. Then i had to put on my support hose and i was good to go. Yes, i am 19 and wearing support hose. My family called me grandma and gimpy all week! Custard hut after the surgery really helped me feel better! Monday's surgery went just as smooth. I have been in bed pretty much all week. I am not aloud to do any heavy lifting or running. Its been nice being able to sleep in, but i am ready to get out of this house!!!

My lovely bruise, it was a good5 inches long, i have another knarley one on my other leg, but i'll spare you pics

Over all pros and cons of vein closure surgery
1. get out of housework
2. food made and brought to you,eat in bed
3. naps
4. stay home from work
5.less leg pain later in life

1. support hose
2. boredom
3. pain
4. bruises
5. being called names, Gimpy, Gertrude, Grandma

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Heart Attack!!!

So I was at work on Wednesday whe one of Patrick's friends, John, came in and asked me what happened to my car. I was rather confused, i hadn't done anything to my car. My first thought was that someone had hit it and i kinda started to panic. When i asked him what it was, he said that there were hearts all over it. I am a very gullible and refused to fall for this trick. I insisted that he wass wrong and that he would need to come up with a more convncing lie. He just kept saying he wasn't kidding. Finally, I went out to look and sure enough...i had been heart attacked by my family

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

She's back!

Its been a while since I last posted. Audra is now home from her mission. She served 18 monthes in the Utah Provo mission. Its great to have her back but its a little weird too. I have to share a room again, something I haven't had to do in a while. I have to turn my phone on vibrate at night and sleep with a nightlight. And if I come in late, I have to be really quiet and find my PJ's and contacts in the dark. But all of those things are worth the sacrifice to have my big sister and best friend home again. My grandmother and mother chipped in and sponsered a spa day for Audra and I. We went to the Elizabeth Arden Red Door Spa in Galloway. My friend Kim took me to the one in the Harrah's Casino in Atlantic City for a manicure for my 18th birthday last year. It was so great. So I took my momfor mother's day for a manicure and pedicure, cost me about 200 for the both of us, but it was well worth it. So i was very excited to go with Audra and see the other spa and compare. They had the same robes and slippers. And the manicure and pedicure were great, but to be honest, I think the service at the AC one was better. The Galloway one is no where near as fancy or accomidating, but its the same prices.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Busy Bee

I have been so crazy busy this summer! I have been working at my grandmother's two days a week. I am her caregiver. I go to the grocery store for her, pick up her perscriptions at CVS, and take her to doctor's appointments. I also do simple housework, like take care of her cat litter, do the dishes, make her bed ect. The best part is being able to spend time with her. We watch a lot of judge shows. We also watch days of our lives. Haha, i am actually getting into it too.
If my work at wawa and my grandmother's isn't enough, i am starting a nanny job. My mother and the bishop's wife has been visiting a less active member's house, Aruna. She has three children, a 10 year old daughter, Ciera, a 2 year old boy, Logan, and an 8 month old daughter, Alanna. Logan was premature and has severe Cerebal Palsy. Logan is the same size as baby Alanna. Aruna's husband works 4 days a week in New York, so he has a really long comute and isn't home much. My mom took me with her one day so we could help out. Logan loved me for some reason. He won't let my mom or sister bird hold him. And he would bite previous nannies, but he was all smiles with me. So I will be working there two days a week. I am exhausted all the time, but i am happy. I will be even more happy when i cut back my hours at wawa to only two days.
Mondays at Aruna's, Tuesdays at Grandma's, Wednesdays at Aruna's, Thursdays at Wawa, Fridays at Grandma's, and Saturdays at Wawa...Sundays off!!!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Common courtesy

Is it just me, or is no one taught common courtesy anymore. It is so frustrating. work at Wawa and see people all the time being so rude. I understand that you are on vacation, but that doesn't mean the world stops and that everyone now caters to you, honestly! People spill their coffee and even though their is napkins righ next to the spill, they walk away and leave their mess. People try to cut in line and the complain to the manager when they are not served right away. People also complain when their lunch meat isn't cut right away when we are in the middle of a huge lunch rush and i am in the middle of cutting 6 pounds worth of lunch meat for another woman.
Another frustrateing pet peeve of mine is long doctor appointment waits. I tok my grandmother to the footdoctor last friday. Her appointment was at 11am. We got there on time, maybe even 10 minutes early. We were not taken to the back until 11:45, 45 minutes in the waiting room. Then we waiting in our small room for another 20 minutes. Why do doctors have you scheduled at 11am when they have no intention of seeing you until after noon? What if we had something important to do that day? Not that we did, but I would much rather be sitting in her living room with he cat then sitting in a foot doctor waiting room. And its not just them, a lot of doctors do that. I was at a gynocologist appointment. I waited an hour and my doctor was in the roomless then two minutes. She asked me two questions and wrote out a pescription and that was it.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

No Phone

A week ago, my mom came into my room and said that she wanted to bet me that i couldn't go one day without my cell phone. i kind of freaked out. My cell phone is my life. I take it everywhere with me. I feel totally naked without it. I knew that it would be really hard to do, but i wanted to prove to her thati could do it. Then i turned around the challenge on to her and bet that she couldn't go one day with out her soda. We then spent the next hour or so discussing it and talking about what would be the hardest thing for everyone in our family to give up for a day. We realized that we have these little addictions to simple little things, like soda, tv, dirtbikes and cell phones.
I was in charge of the family home evening yesterday. I decided that i would present this challenge to others. But instead of presenting these things as addictions, i related it to something that was relevant to our life as a family, Audra. Audra is on her mission and is coming home soon. So i asked all of my family to pick one rule from the missionary guidelines to follow for three days. I am giving up my cell phone, missionaries can't text or call friends or family. Will is going to stop bike riding, missionaries don't ride motorcycles. Paul is going to stop watching TV, Mom is not going to watch Matlock and Dad isn't going to listen to Harry Potter books on his Ipod. Instead we will spend that time on reading our scriptures, writing in journals and listening to geeral conference talks. So for the next three days, i will not use my phone, its sitting on my dresser and is turned off. You can call the house if you need to getahold of me, or write me a comment on facebook. Lets see how this goes, hmmm...

Monday, May 11, 2009

Yay for hot water!

We finally have a working hot water heater! Yay!! The Saturday before last, 10 days ago, our hot water heater broke. They couldn't order the new part until Monday. It didn't get here until Wednesday (5 days later). They part they sent was broken...grr. So they ordered another new part which arrived Friday. Even with that part, the water heater still didn't work. My mother was so fed up. Instead of ordering a different part to fix it, we decided to just get a whole new one and it came today!! We have all been showering at our bishop's house that is just around the corner. It will be nice to just be able to shower in my own house again! Yay!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Back in Jersey

I arived back in New Jersey about two weeks ago. My lovely roomie gave me her cold as her going away present for me...yay. A cold and an airplane don't go very well together. It gave me an ear infection. A half an hour before landing, i felt like my left ear exploded. It hurt so bad! And I couldn't hear out of that ear for the next two days.
Its great to be home again. I missed my family so much! I missed Patrick a lot too! When I got home, Paul wouldn't let me in the front door. He insisted that i go around back. I was in a terrible mood cause it was 90 degrees and i was in sweats and i was feeling really sick. I finally made it in the house and my mom wisked me into her room to tell me the schedule for the week and doctor appointments ect. Then Will told me to go in his room.. I thought he wanted to show me something stupid. i didn't suspect anything, until he told me to hang up a shirt in his closet for him and the whole family came into watch! They had Patrick hiding in the closet. They are such dorks! It was so funny! I am shocked he went along with them and went in the closet.
I started back at work too. Its great to have an income, but i am getting sick of wawa and all the drama that goes along with it. People there just love to talk about everyone else and spread rumors. I just don't want to deal with it anymore. I will be starting a new job tuesdays. It is in addition to wawa. Tuesdays and Fridays I will be going to my grandmother's to help her out. Take her to doctor's, grocery store, do cleaning for her ect. Its only 5 hours two days a week. It will be a great opportunity to spend time with her. Yesterday I went to Patrick's Uncle's funeral. It makes me think a lot about the time that i have and how i spend it. You never know whenever something will happen.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Anna & Stratton's Wedding

My roomie Anna was married on Saturday. The Decorations and flowers were all very beautiful!

We spent Friday night dipping 350 strawberries in chocolate. I experimented a lil and tried to make tuxedo ones. They actually turned out pretty good, but I only made 4. One for each of us. The cake was beautiful too!

The ceremony was really nice. Anna looked gorgeous!!!!

Stratton is a brak dancer so of course there was a lot of dancing...

It was a wonderful night! I wish them both the best!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


Finals are almost done and i can't wait! Its been so crazy! my one teacher never told us when the final was, so i showed up at the time the syllabus said, and no one was there. It turns out it was in the testing center. Another final had a location change. I just have one more and then I am done! Yay!!!
The rest of the week is pretty busy too. Tonight is Anna's bridal shower. That will be fun. Thursday and Friday will be cleaning days fr final check outs...I hope I pass, but seeing as I have failed every othr cleaning check, I will most likely fail the major intense one. Saturday is the wedding and I am so excited for Anna and Stratton!
I am flying home Monday. I am excited and sad at the same time. I can"t wait to go home and be with my family and Patrick and my friends. I can't wait to go to Voltacos and get a cheesesteak, Mac & Manco's for pizza and Custard Hut for ice cream. I can't wait to go to the beach! But i am sad to leave the friends that I have made here. Its weird to think I won't be coming home to this apartment much longer.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

None were with Him

In the Sunday morning session of Conference, Elder Jeffrey R. Holland gave a wonderful talk on the atonment. I was so moved by it. It really touched me. I knew that Christ knew how i felt whenever i was going through a hard time. I knew he had been through worse. That is how he is able to comfort us and support us. But after hearing this talk I was able to understand on a very minute scae, how he must of felt. I have had many close friends turn their backs on me and betray me. One of Christ's apostles turned him in for money.
A video clip has been made of this talk and the movie The Testaments. I don't know how toput it on here but if you go to
it has the video as well as the whole it, its is amazing

Saturday, April 11, 2009


This week has been super crazy for me. Last weekend my family was in town. It was so great to see them again. I miss them a lot. We went to the Saturday morning session of General Conference. I had been inside the conference center for a tour before, but this was so much cooler. There were protestors outside which i expected. Paul seemed a little scared. He kept asking if people were protestors. I told him that only protestors will yell, members of the church won't. Our seats were amazing. We were in the middle of the front row inthe second section. The sound booth and the media people were right infront of us. Paul got his picture and name taken by 3 different photographers. His pictures were in the deseret news.
One of my favorite parts of conference was when we left. We walked through a huge crowd of protestors screaming and yelling. On the other side of the sidewalk, missionaries and members lined both sides of the sidewalk. They were singing hymns very softly. It was so cool. They were not singing loud, but it completely drowned out all the yelling. It was amazing.

The next day we went to visit family and friends. We saw our good friends Jun and Irin Daniels first. We had lunch at a great chinese buffet. Normally i don't like Chinese, but this was really good. We drove up to the newly dedicated Draper Temple together.
Then we went to my Aunt Jan's house for dinner. My Uncle Steve and Aunt T were there. It was the first time that I met T. She is so beautiful inside and out. I was invited to their house for Easter. I didn't even realize how soon easter was, tomorrow! I had no clue where I was going to eat, so I am glad I can spend it with family.

The Siblings

The whole gang

The cousins
The next day, Monday April 6, was my19th birthday. I was excited that my family was there. They were coming down to Provo. I was going to show them around school and take my mom to class with me while the boys bowled. Then we had dinner reservations at Bombarra, a nice restaurant in Salt Lake City. But when i woke up, I felt terrible. I had a sore throat and extreme stomache ache. It hurt to move. Whenever I stood up, my legs shook like crazy. Luckily, I started feeling better in the afternoon. We went to campus and class. Instead of driving all the way to Salt Lake, we went to the Old Spaghetti factory. I was really good and my parents had the waiters sing to me after I told them not to. My waiter apologized to me after and said he didn't have a choice. I was sad when they left for home, But I will be back in Jersey soon too.
After they left, i did nothing but work. I had a ten minute presentation and an eight page presentation due Wednesday. That was also the last day of my Physical Science final. On Thursday, i had a ten page paper due. Friday was a three page paper. Basically I didn't sleep at all. Ally McClain and her mom were in town this week. Ally came to my Book of Mormon class with me Thursday. It was great to see her again, a touvh of Linwood ward.
Last night was a nice break. It was my roomate sara's birthday. My roomies Anna and Lenny took us out to dinner for our birthdays. They made us were purple happy birthday crowns and blindfolded us so we wouldn't know where we were going. It was so funny. They are dorks but i love them. We went to Brick Oven. It was my first time there and the pizza was good, not nearly Kirk's or Mack and Manco's pizza standards, but still good. Anna made us a cake and almost set our table on fire, until Sara blew out all the candles early. They sang to us anyway and we blew out the remaining five candles. Then the waiters came to sing and made us stand on our chairs as they sang. It was embarrasing and fun at the same time.
Today, i finally caught up on my sleep, until 2 in the afternoon. Thats the longest I have slept without the aid of niquil. Today is also Patrick and my one year anniversary! Yay!

Sunday, March 29, 2009


I had a very interesting weekend. There was a small fire in our oven! The night before, one of my roomates made cookies for visiting teaching. Some of the dough spilled over and was never cleaned up. She never told anyone. The next day, i preheated the oven to 450 to bake frozen pizza. I knew it would take awhile to hea up, so i went to my room. A few minutes later i went to check it. The room was all hazy and smelled horrible. i was confused because i hadn't put anything in the oven yet. How could it be burning? I opened up the door and the spill was on fire. It was small enough to be blown out. It made me stat thinking about fire safety. There is only one smoke detector in the apartment and it is halfway down the hallway, no where near the kitchen. There is also no fire extinguisher. College students are notoriously bad cookers, shouldn't there be a smoke detector in the kitchen and a fire extinguisher somewhere in the apartment. Just my opinion.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

My computer is back!

On February 21, my computer started to go crazy on me. I was working on a powerpoint presentaion for my language development class when the colors on the screen started to go tye-dye. then my computer screen just turned black. I shut it down and restarted it and it was fine for like 10 minutes until the exact same thing happened. I restarted it like 3 or 4 times before i gave up. An hour or so later, i tried to use my computer again. this time it wouldn't even let me go on to the log in scree. Instead it went black, then striped, then green. I had to call Dell and they sent me a package in the mail to ship my computer back to be fixed.
When I got the package, there was a paper in it saying i was responsible to back up the hard drive or remove it. It also told me how to remove the hard drive. Because my computer wouldn't even turn on anymore, i could back up my hard drive. So i treied to take it out. The trouble with that was that we had no screw driver. i asked some of the nearby apartments and couldn't find anyone with a screwdriver. So i bought a pack of 5 at the bookstore. The problem with those were that the screws were in so tight and it was too hard to get them out because the handles of the screwdrivers were so small. my thumb was red for three hours after from trying to unloose them. I even had Stratton try.
The next day I went back to the bookstore to buy one with a better handle. The problem with that was it was too big for the tiny screws. I didn't care about any of the documents on my computer, but i didn't want to lose my music or my pctures. But there i was running out of ideas to get the hard drive out. So i sent it with it in and prayed they wouldn't mess it up.
I got my computer back yesterday and everything is still there! I was a very happy camper, until i found out the sound isn't working anymore. Patrick told me he thinks he can tell me how to fix it, so i am not too worried.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Cleaning Checks

I live in King Henry Apartments and once a month we have cleaning checks. Each person in the apartment has a list of things to clean, then the cleaning lady comes and checks it. If you fail, then you are charged $5 and they comeback the next day to recheck. If you fail the recheck, then you pay $20 an hour for a cleaning lady to come and clean it for you. We just had our 5th or 6th cleaning check and I failed. In fact, I have yet to pass one. They are so rediculously strict! The one time i failed because i didn't clean the front door properly, when in fact i scrubed the door with Softscub bleach for 20 minutes. The most frustrating part is that i keep the apartment clean on a regular basis. I do the dishes, empty the dishwasher, take out the trash, replace the toilet paper, mop the kitchen floor and wipe down the kitchen table. Every Friday after school, i go on a little cleaning rampage and clean the bathroom, vanity area, kitchen and living room. The apartment smells like lemons for two days. Yet I always fail cleaning checks. Grr

My blog

I have enjoyed secretly reading a lot of people's blogs over the past few months and I have finally decided to make my own. I am not married and i don't have any kids. I don't have a super interesting life. I am not married and i have no kids. But I will blog about my life anyway :) Feel free to read