Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Stick a fork in it

Not this past summer but the summer before, I happened to be strolling around Pier One. I saw these giant utensils, like 4 feet tall forks, spoons, knives and spatula. I totally loved them. The only problem was that they cost $70. I would go in every few weeks to see if they went on sale to no avail. After our wedding, we recieved a $50 gift card to Pier One and the fork was on sale! for $50! Perfect!!! Since then, my giant fork has sat in our spare room bcause I didn't really know what to do with it. Last week I finally hung it up on the wall. It was meant to hang vertically but I did it horizontal
I still totally loved it but it felt like something was missing. I hit up Pinterest and found a link to these free printables from overthemoon.blogspot.com
When I tried to print them at home on cardstock, the colors weren't coming out quite right, so I sent them over to CVS to print on photo paper. With my coupons, it ended up being free! After spray painting some old/cheap black frames silver (spray painting isn't my strong point), they were ready!
I seriously love the way everything came out!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Help Wanted

So shoedazzle gave me a $15 gift certificate good til the end of September and I cant decide! Please help me pick!
Brendy
Kanda
Graziella
Royan Please take the poll to the right and help me decide!!!!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Round 42

1. I had to unfollow Eva Longoria on twitter until after this election is over. Every tweet was a bash on Romney.
2. I love thunderstorms
3. My favorite accent is Irish
4. My confessions aren't really confessions. More like random facts about myself
5. I hate gas stoves

Monday, September 17, 2012

Feelings...its getting personal

So after going to my family doctor and my gyno and getting blood work done, I have learned nothing new. I am def not preggos, which I already new. My blood work came back all normal and my internal exam didn't show anything out of the ordinary as well. My gyno wants me to get an ultra sound to make sure everything is fine.
This whole thing is so frustrating because it is so inconsistant. I will be totally fine all day then BAM I am curled up in a ball crying my eyes out hoping to puke so the pain will stop. Then in a hour or so, I am feeling normal again. And I will go days between episodes. I have also noticed that I am having chest pains much more often. I dont know if it is heartburn because I dont think I have ever had heartburn and it doesn't happen after eating. It just feels like my chest starts to feel super tight and unconfortable to breathe. I feel like I am sufficated and litterally all I want to do is rip my bra off (something I can't exactly do during my workday)
I have also been having crazy wild dreams. I have weird dreams everyonce in a while but this is like 5-6 dreams in a night every single night. After each dream, I wake up and have trouble falling back asleep regardless of whether or not is was a good or bad dream.
I really think that a big part of my problem is stress. It has been a really hard summer for me and I have had a hard time dealing. I don't often share my feelings when I am hurt, upset, sad, mad ect. I let it all build up til one day I explode. But this time, I am imploding. While I do want to persist to make sure I really am fine physically, I have seriously started considering seeing a pyschologist.
One of my biggest problems is that I want everyone to like me. I care what other people think or say about me. If someone doesn't like me, I tear myself up wondering why and what I can do better. But the truth is that if someone doesn't like me it is his or her problem not mine! If someone has a problem with me, it is just that they have the problem! I can only be the best person that I can be. And not to be self-centered, but I am pretty friggin fabulous! I just need to remind myself that.
I also tend to keep quiet when someone hurt my feelings or upsets me because I don't want to hurt their feelings. I know how it feels to be hurt, and I would rather just hurt myself then to stand up for myself and risking stepping on their toes. Well, thats a bunch of crap. I need to stop letting people walk all over me. I need to call people out on their behaviors. I need to stop letting people talk down to me.
I need outlets to work out my stress. I am going to try several different things to help relieve my stress. First, I need to start exercising again. I always feel better after. It is a great stress reliever and it will help me sleep better at night. Second, I need to get back into a scripture reading habit. Reading scriptures soothes my soul. And third, I want to be more crafty and make my apartment feel more like a home. I want to make throw pillows and curtains. I want to actually start to do all the things I repinned on pinterest. I feel like I need to do something more productive. Fourth, I need more of a social life. All I do is work, watch tv and sleep. I need to get out of the house and do something. I have a book club once a month, which is great, but I think I need a little bit more then that. I have always been a rather quiet and shy person so I need to suck it up and invite friends over for lunch or dinner. And last but not least, I want to blog more. It is kind like a journal to me and I enjoy it. I can get my thoughts and ideas out and even get feedback from friends.
I hope that once I get myself together emotionally and spiritually, my body will get it together physically and the pain and discomfort can stop. Any other ideas?

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Superb September

Here are my shoedazzle picks for September

Boots and Booties
Ashtyn- I think that they had these last year, they look very familiar to me but they added some colors I think

Fanesia-I really like these rider boots

Lourdes- They definitly had these last year. I liked them a lot then, but this year they raised the price on them. Bummer!

Irene- I like these flat over-the-knee boots. They would be great with leggings

Callia- I love these!!! So So So much!!!

Parisa- I like these but I dont think I would ever actually get them

Heels
Domino- Sorry but these may just be the ugliest pair of shoes I have ever seen. I just had to add them

Aerin- I dont have any green shoes

Brendy- This shoe has a little bit of everything, Black and pink, metal heel, bow and spikes. Suger and Spice

Erin-Not a shoe that I would wear, but it is very sexy secretary.

Graziella- If I am going to buy a pair this month, this would be it! I love the lacy corset back and pink sole

Hanne- Fancier cap toe

Kanda-Super cute!

Jessica- Definitly a formal shoe

Flats
Decadent- $29.95

Linette- $29.95

Purses
Royan-I love me some fringe. I have this bag in purple and I love it. Now they have black, red and yellow

Wadena

Sunday, September 2, 2012

issues

Disclaimer: 1-this post may be TMI for some people. 2- I am not pregnant

Ok so I have been having a lot of physical issues lately. I honestly dont know what the deal is. It started a few weeks ago when I was working an overnight at work. About 15 minutes before leaving, my stomach starting hurting pretty bad. I was due for my period soon and thought that I was just getting cramps early. I got home around 8am and went straight to bed. But at 9 I woke up with super intense pains. Then the vomiting and diarrea started. I started to think it was food poisoning but the only thing I had eaten was chicken from Sonic before work and it had been 12 hours. The vommiting lasted all day, so food poisoning is out. I thought it was a 24 hour bug thing because the next day I was perfectly fine again. Since then, I have had more issues. My period did come and it was ridiculously heavy, like nothing I have ever experienced.
The next week, the vomitting came back. As well as gas pains and severe stomach pains. The one day was sooooo bad. It woke me up around 3am and I was scheduled to open the store. I hate calling out so I showed up but there was no way I would make it through the day. I wasn't sure if I could even drive home. The next manager was coming in at 9 so I stayed in the office and did some work on the computer until she came in and then I left. But again, the next day I was fine. It was so frustrating.
I also was/am experiencing food aversion. I will be crazy hungry, make food, eat two bites and not be able to eat another thing. My sence of smell has heightened too. Smells that never bothered me bofore make me feel sick to my stomach. I started my period again too, just a week and a half after finishing my regular period.
The night my period started again, I kinda made a mess of the bedspread (I warned you there would be TMI). So at 2am, Pat and I are both up and I am pouring on hydrogen peroxide to prevent a huge red stain on my beautiful white duvet (that stuff is magical), When we finally got to bed, the pain started again, worse then ever. It wasn't my stomach, it was lower in my pelvis and on both sides. Then out of no where came a parralizing pain in the center of my uterus area. I really couldnt move it hurt so bad. These pains have come in the past but never lasted that long. I felt bad because I knew I was freaking Pat out and he had to be up early the next morning for work. He started to look up online the symptoms. He is convinced that I have either bladder spasms or an eptopic pregnancy.
He convinced me to get a doctor's appointment. I called my gyno and of course they had nothing available until the 13th. I took that appointment and called my regular doctor. He usually fits me in the very next day but he didn't have anything until this coming wednesday. I am really hoping someone can tell me what the heck is going on and help me fix it. Its annoying because I can never predict the symptoms. I will be perfectly fine then bam, vomiting, then a few hours later I am fine again. And seriously bleeding 3 of the 4 weeks in a month is not cool! ugh
In the mean time, I am trying to take it easy and not stressing the little stuff. I figure stress may be the root of this problem. I am also trying to cut down my soda intake and trying to force myself to stop and eat regular meals. Starving myself isn't helping anything. I'll let you know what the doctors say...hopefully its nothing and an easy fix